waiting for you as it hurts more.

at first i thought everything was just a simple crush..oh I guess, i was always wrong..i never thought something as huge as this could actually hit me, but it already did..in my eyes, you are just a childish junior student.. a junior student---a year younger than me..this may sound silly but the first time i laid my eyes on you, i already felt this excitement..and i guess that meant something..i spent a year trying to forget every little thing i felt for you and i really really thought i was gonna be okay without your cousin, since he was just the only person who connected the two of us..and i thought, i forgot you..but never in my life have i wished to feel this again..never..


i feel this love for you..i felt all the excitement, the kilig's, the kiliti's..and how foolish of me to think that we could at least be partners this promenade..oh Gosh..you are such an amazing guy..you are talented, but frankly saying, i am a lot better than you..that thing really makes me feel flattered for i know, there's still something in me that you may and can admire..you were my inspiration..you were the one i considered my clown because you make me feel happy and determined..you were the one i always thought whenever i step on to the gate of our school..oh, com'n! smile at me..these were the words i always wished whenever i take a glance on you..we're not friends..we're not even talking..but i am contented with that..

you cannot even look at me and say hi.. at least, we were once magkakilala, weren't we? and you were once my student, weren't you? i taught you Math right? do you remember? sometimes, i wish that LOVE is like mathematics that is easy to analyze and easy to understand..some think, it's nose bleeding..however, in contrast with that, love is just so complicated..and as you try to dig for an answer, it's hurting more..and as you wait, your heart bleeds..