Defying nature.

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AM I A BAD FRIEND?
Nganong dili man jud nako mastop akuang sarili to get mad sa isa ka friend na dili kabalo magsunod sa tama? I mean many things about what I said.
These past few days, I can't manage to stop the anger or the whatyacall "tampo" sa isang friend. Kasalanan ko ba yun? I have always asked myself, that if this is my nature, why does the Bible require us to change? And God knows, how I try to change this nature. How many times I defied nature. Just because I rely on what the religious sectors are saying. But, nothing has changed. WALANG NANGYARI. Here I am, ganoon pa rin. Nagagalit at hindi marunong umunawa. Bakit ganon? Siguro, ganon na kapowerful si Satan sa akin na nagiging norm ko na'to.
Bakit?
Do those people in the convent feel the same way? I can't escape from who I am. No matter how I pray each night. Maybe, kulang pa yun. Kulang pa siguro. Mabait ako. And that's what my heart and my body are saying. Pero, hindi ko nga kayang pigilan eh!
Hindi talaga.
Minsan, naiisip ko. Yung mga kontrabida sa teleserye na sa ending nagiging mabait, magiging mabait ba talaga sila forever? How did they do that? How could they change themselves? Totoo ba talaga? Bakit ganon? Ba't hindi ko magawa?


IF THINGS GET WORSE. WHO WILL I BLAME?
AKO BA?